pod connecting

Submitted by: moanasuz Date of experience: Nov 18 2009 Experience Type(s): Awakening Experience or Vision

i'm with a group of poeple. we are getting together to help each other go deeper in ways that are most valuable to each person. d is there. I dont seem to know anybody else here and it seems I do at a deeper level in myself. i need to go to the bathroom and have the largest BM i have ever had. but when i go to flush it down it wont go down and is sticking to the sides of the toilet and even the wall above. I am aghast--even tho i know i am here to release my 'shit' and go deeper to explore my next step.
i am scrambling to find implements to clean the bathroom before others need to use it. I get some help and implements and just barely get things cleaned up before someone comes in. in some way this is totally exhausting for me and i feel devoid of energy.
i go out side and see a few people casually chatting. D is there and I go and lay down nearby. D begins to notice something is going on with me and moves closer while continuing conversation. i feel vulnerable and fragile--that which has been a false protection for me--no that which I have been used to noticing is slipping away.
as i am lying here i feel myself sinking down and down and down into greater and greater vastness. i feel myself dissolving into the vastness of all that is, all that was and can be. then i feel myself being sucked down deeper into a burmuda triangle whirlpool. feeling scared and excited and all the range of emotions flooding me--and then being sucked down the whirlpool beneath me until i am devoid of feeling. now i am surrendering to the pull of the vortex without feelings. i am aware of physical contact with d and merging with the vastness simultaneously.
in that vastness there is a voice--no several voices. they come from the dolphin, sea turtle and whale beings. it is their sounds--even the sea turtle has a sound. i am learning to hear the different sounds and distinguish their meanings in this 3d experience. these are the angels of the deep space. they are my family. they are the ohana, the messengers and the community.
d moves closer and i am experiencing a merging of something in myself and there is something about opening to the capacity to move and be in various realities simultaneously without losing a deeper level coherence i am expanding into.
i notice a flooding of deep joy in myself and also a heartful peace. i rest in the pleasure of that, not feeling a need to do or be anything else. the vastness is who i am and who we are and i can be in different parts of it with increasing ease now.